~ excerpt from a journal written last month on a 4 day yoga retreat~
I am currently into day 4 of a 4 day yoga retreat. I am currently into 2 or so hours of a 4 hour requested silence.
It is morning, it is cold in the shade, so I sit in silence with the sun warming my skin.
All around me are tired little yogi’s reflecting, struggling to be quiet, loving the silence; I don’t know.
All I know is how I feel, and how I feel is emotional.
What I can’t figure out is why.
Being alone is nothing new, being silent and alone with my thoughts is a frequent and welcomed practice for me.
Yet being amongst 50 other people moving about not saying a word is definitely something new for me.
These past 4 days have pushed me mentally, physically and emotionally – I can’t even say why, but I can say that I feel we all need to step outside of our comfort zones several times in life, in order to feel more, be more and achieve more.
We NEED to experience some storms before the calm, the storms help us to appreciate the calm times in life.
We need to push the outer limits of our learnt and habitual behaviors.
As one of my teachers said (and is a favorite quote of mine) ‘if we keep doing what we have always done, we will keep getting what we have always got’.
I believe that nothing great was ever achieved by sitting comfortably, and not stepping outside your comfort zone.
After every storm the dust settles, the rain clears and new life is felt. You can literally feel it in the air, that change,that freshness, that vitality.
Could we perhaps not say the same of ourselves; we go through hardships, the dust clears, the metaphorical storm clouds disappear and we survive and feel re-born, re-awakened.
We emerge stronger, more resilient.
If we are constantly surrounded by chatter, can we ever find our own words?
If we are constantly filling the silences with noise, will the noise in our heads continue to grow?
If we don’t embrace the storms, will we ever be able to appreciate the calm?
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As I said, this was written in my journal over a month ago now, and without really knowing why, I opened my retreat journal this afternoon, and as I read over my words I am amazing at the timing.
Last week was a bit intense and emotional for me, and it would appear I was not alone.
Sometimes we really do receive and read things at the exact time we are meant to, and even though these words came from me, they have helped me by re-reading them today, and my heartfelt wish for anyone reading this who is also in the midst of a storm is to trust that this will pass, the calmness will re-appear and know that you will emerge stronger than ever before.
Xxx
