Sometimes I awake at silly o’clock at times to teach a class, I boil the kettle and jump in a quick wake up shower.
Occasionally I internally battle with my NEED for morning coffee.
Occasionally hearing my yoga teacher in my head (let’s protect his identity and call him Mr M) telling me how bad caffeine is, I have read the studies and he is an intelligent guy so I am pretty confident the studies and he is right.
Yet that voice is always quickly quieted by the louder “get out of the shower so you have time to slam that morning coffee down” voice screeching at me from under the soothing refreshing water pouring over my head, calming me from the evil alarm that made me want to forget about the Ahimsa Yama and instead of being a non violent person, sometimes I just want to punch that beeping alarm in its beeping face.
I lapse into a happy serene daydream under that shower, momentarily forgetting the world, blissfully euphoric under a cascade of soothing water, until the screeching coffee need inner voice returns with a jolt yelling “now you idiot- get out now!”
So I reluctantly get out of the shower I throw on my yoga gear, I almost never do my hair, yogis don’t do hair and makeup right – we are natural and beautiful and content with our natural beauty.
Now don’t be too shocked I do smear a bit of moisturizer and sunscreen on my face – I’m not an animal.
Anyway where was I?
That beautiful liquid that allows me to regularly practice Ahimsa and be non violent to myself or others 🙂
See I also practice Satya as you can see my the many truths revealed in this story.
Yes I slam my coffee down – I say slam as I couldn’t possibly set my alarm 5 minutes earlier to allow me to sip my morning coffee like a civilized human.
I eat a tiny bit of toast normally with peanut butter that nine times out of ten I am wiping off my pants during the journey to class – Don’t ask I am as baffled as you are!
I race to my class feeling tired and slightly disheveled.
I am sometimes still angry at my alarm for making me wake so early – I have forgotten all about the 4th Niyama – non judgement.
I arrive at class, I roll my mat out and a strange peaceful calm transcends over my body.
I step onto my yoga mat and sit peacefully awaiting (secretly hoping) (sometimes worrying) that someone will actually turn up at this ungdly hour.
The people file in they are subdued, undoubtedly as tired as me.
I smile at them knowingly, I smile at them compassionately.
I smile, as being a yoga instructor is the most rewarding fulfilling job I can have imagined myself living. It can also be a lonely world as a self-employed instructor so I smile for me, for the simple fact that I am sharing my space with another human.
I smile in appreciation that they too got up early for me or for themselves, they choose my class out of all the many classes and I feel honoured.
I smile as for that next hour my life exists purely for them – my thoughts are no longer my own, my being is a vehicle to inspire others, to motivate, to exist for them and them alone.
My thoughts, doubts, fears, insecurities, excitement, preoccupied dreams can be mine again maybe ten minutes after class but for that moment and for every class that I teach, my thoughts are not my own. For during this time, I practice and I honour all the Yamas, the Niyamas, prana, I honour my teachers, I honour myself and I honour each and every person in that room.
I am an instructor I am watching people grow; mentally, physically and emotionally.
I momentarily feel silly for my alarm induced rage.
My feelings of tiredness have vanished.
I am ok with my decision to drink coffee (sorry Mr M) I don’t do drugs, I don’t drink excessively, I don’t even eat a lot of meat I am mostly a vegetarian without even being vegetarian.
I am kind to others and I try to always be kind to myself.
I believe in energy and I vow to beam all the positive energy I have inside out of my heart and into my students.
I am a coffee drinking yoga instructor I sometimes have crazy hair and I always have awesome yoga pants.
I am a loving yoga instructor who loves life, who loves to help others and chooses to hate nothing except for alarms.
I am a walking contradiction of mayhem and calm.
I am a yoga instructor and these are my truths.